Golden Retriever GF<p><span>I feel weird. Recently I started looking at my girlishfriend with big dreamy lovey eyes and started calling her "Wife-ish" because we finally got the last form required to pursue marriage. NGL communicating with US bureacracy/courts what we need for German ones from across the atlantic is like trying to get US electronics to work in German Steckdosen with no adapter or dock the Soyuz and Apollo together.<br><br>But I'm just in this weird position. I was given a promotion at work. Usually a "promotion" means more work for the same pay with denial of access to the programs I need to succeed. I got a raise, programs tied to my personal email and the respect of my peers. With marriage our savings will jump dramatically because of Health Insurance and how German tax works.<br><br>I'm used to life feeling like paddling upstream in white water rapids in a kayak while someone simultaneously sprays a firehose in my face. Like my first attempt at moving to Germany was 72 hours before the borders closed from Covid19, after I'd quit my job, sold my car and my apartment. That's what I'm used to. Misery, while working overtime and simultaneously having my human rights removed and my check engine light is on. On my car or on my physical or mental health. Doesn't matter.<br><br>Life doesn't go this way for me. I'm not used to pushing equaling progress and just like moving continents felt like something that was planned but would never happen, marrying the love of my life seemed like it would never happen. The legal portion is planned to happen during my vacation next month. The ceremony is yet unplanned but likely over a year distant. Still. I don't know how to handle "success". I am used to backbreaking, reality shattering, struggles. What IS this. Happiness, respect and love?!<br><br>My gods what is this world coming to?<br><br>p.s. have some life pictures as a treat<br><br></span><a href="https://blahaj.zone/tags/transjoy" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#transjoy</a> <a href="https://blahaj.zone/tags/marriage" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#marriage</a> <a href="https://blahaj.zone/tags/workinghard" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#workinghard</a> <a href="https://blahaj.zone/tags/germany" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#germany</a> <a href="https://blahaj.zone/tags/uspol" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#uspol</a> <a href="https://blahaj.zone/tags/eupol" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#eupol</a></p>